Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Hang-over meets PMS

Hey everyone,
My boss has told me how much she appreciated keeping a journal about the updates of her pregnancy so I'm going to try to be a little better about keeping this updated -- expecially as more people have now found out and are asking me for updates.

So at this point, several of my friends know and the people I work with have all figured it out due to my morning sickness. On the other hand, I don't think David has yet told any of his friends (they don't call and ask "ARE YOU PREGNANT?" like some of mine... cough-cough-burke :) I'm fairly confident that neither of our families know yet either. I'm getting pretty excited about telling them.

We came up with a really fun way to tell my parents -- we are sending Mom and Dad each separate jumbles and they have to put their answers together to figure out the final clue, "News that will make you 'grand'" -- and the final answer is "We're Pregnant!" I think it will be really fun but I'm not sure if they will do the puzzles how they are supposed to or if they will cheat. Hopefully they won't because it will be more fun if they work all the clues -- I can't wait to get their histerical phone call! As for Dave's parents, I think we are just going to go visit them next weekend (after Halloween) and tell them in person. I wish we could tell my parents in person but it's just not reasonable to wait until Christmas... besides, our Christmas list might seem a little fishy if they don't know "uh, Bridget, why do you want a crib and nursing pads for Christmas?"

In other news, last week and this weekend I just felt horrible. Morning sickness is a b!tch. I am so jealous of the women who said they didn't get it. I also have to say that I can't even imagine going through this without David -- he has been absolutely wonderful. He gets me food, is sympathetic (but not abnoxiously so) to me being sick, and has been very considerate of all my quirks so far. Seriously, he's awesome. I was a little nervous -- and I guess still am -- about how all of this will change us, but seeing how he has been so far is a great confidence booster that all the changes, exhausting and comprehesive as they might be, will make us stronger and we'll get through everything together. I'm sure this is half my ultra-emotional preggo hormones and half my rosy-newlywed-glasses talking, but I feel better and more confident about our marriage now than I did 5 months ago when we actually said our vows. Is that weird? I don't know. Yesterday, I panicked a little about the reality that in less than a year we are going to have a little one or that someone might say some super upsetting comment like "I can't believe you're doing this all so fast," or "that was stupid to get pregnant." I think if someone does say that I'll lose it... or send Dave after them with a giant snowball or something.

Anyway, I got an E-mail update today that said it was likely that my nausea will lessen in the next couple of weeks. God I hope so. My bosses have been awesome about everything so far -- they have even let me change my schedule a bit so that I don't have to come in so early in the morning. I've found that if I just let myself wake up naturally, I seem to be able to get through the day ok; but if I wake up by my alarm clock when I'm still too tired, I barf. A lot. Ick. It's a really weird feeling -- morning sickness. I've never had motion sickness before, but I think it's pretty similar to that -- except all the motion it takes is waking up or standing up. It's like hang-over meets PMS.

As for other symptoms, here goes. Bbs are growning unreasonably. Too bad for Dave, they still hurt so no fun for him. They aren't as bad as they were a couple weeks ago, but they still aren't ready to come out and play. Sleeping is difficult because I wake up a lot to go to the bathroom -- they warn you about the constant peeing when the uterus presses against the bladder, but they don't tell you that peeing is no longer satisfying. This may be too much information for some of you, but basically, you feel like you have to go all the time because of the pressure, but your not actually full so despite going all the time, only a little comes out and the feeling that you have to go does not go away... until, as far as I can tell, you deliver. Once baby is out, you don't have the constant urge anymore. So I will feel like I have to go until June. I love bathrooms :)

A week from today, David and I will go to our first appointment. Election Day. Mostly, I think it will be typical annual exam stuff except that we get to hear the baby's heartbeat and find out a more accurate due-date. Granted, the date might change (and I'm unlikely to deliver the specific day they guess) but the doctor will check the growth and let us know if it's on track with the original June 4th estimate or not. I'm excited to hear the heartbeat and feel like all this sickness is actually producing something -- I'm actually generally feeling really happy, even though I'm sick.

Well, that's all for now, hope you are all doing well!

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Cuddle bunny

I'm ready to hibernate. Nothing much is going on today, I'm just ready to crawl into a cozy comforter and hibernate. It's getting cold and I'm feeling particularly cuddly these days.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Pregnancy bites and doggy drool.

Well, first, about the doggie. We ended up finding him a new home.

He was absolutely wonderful and unbelievably well behaved — the house training was pretty much as good as we could get it (he could only go about 4 hours because he’s little, but he definitely knew not to go in the house) but he was getting more and more upset when we left him. We thought about it a lot and we really could only spend about 5 hours a day with him because he would eat the cat (aside from the fact that we hadn’t seen Caesar all week because he was pissed) if we let him sleep with us and we have to go to work during the day. Dave and I just decided that wasn’t very fair to the pup to neglect him like that so we resolved to find him a home that could give him more attention. We weren’t going to take him back to the humane society (that seemed irresponsible to us).

As it turns out, Julie’s friend, who works at home, was looking for a puppy and fell in love with him instantly. We’ll probably be able to visit him in a week or so when he’s settled. It was horrible to let him go — especially because when Julie and Joel came over to meet the pup, he would only come to Dave and I because he was nervous about the new people — he even growled at Julie before I told him she was ok, and then he was really playful. It’s amazing what loyalty they have in such a short time. But I think he’s in a place where he will get the attention he needs now. I feel worse that we didn’t really think through it all before we got him that we let him go — I really think that was the most caring thing to do for the dog and I feel good about considering him instead of our own selfish fuzz-therapy desires.

And now on to the pregnancy issue. Seriously, I don't know why they call it morning sickness -- it is constant. It has hit me the last 5 days or so like a ton of bricks. Other than that, I feel ok, but it's really hard to get past the reality that I don't feel like I should be more than ten steps from a puke pot. I have felt a little better this afternoon, but I REALLY hope this is temporary. It is supposed to go away after the first trimester (which for me means Thanksgiving) but I'm not sure I'll make it through. I'm sure I will, but damn, puking for no reasonable cause is crappy.

My "big secret" (being pg) is not quite so big anymore. Alison and Kristen, co-workers, both confronted me about it this morning -- Kristen goes, "So your sickness, is it morning sickness?" I kinda looked away and she asked "are you pregnant?" So I couldn't really dodge that one -- and Alison was direct as always. It's funny, I was really stressed about not being able to tell people but it's kinda fun to keep secrets... I think I'm going to miss when the cat is really out of the bag. I'm encouraged though because, even as my head was propped above the toilet yesterday, I find myself really excited about the idea of being a mom. Of course, these feelings are quickly followed by panic, but still a sense of happiness. Hey, if I can be ok with puking, anything's possible. And as for the baby, s/he already can move on its own, has a beating heart, and, by the end of the week, will have most of its little organs and look like a little alien baby (as opposed to a tumor-like clump of cells).

Things are good.

Monday, October 11, 2004

Our new addition!!

I'm SO excited!! Ok, I have to get a hold of myself. We are getting a puppy!!!! He's so cute!!!

Let me start at the beginning. Last week we went to the Humane Society after work. They are only open until 5:30 so we didn't get to see much. Saturday we went back and talked to some people about what we were looking for. Unfortunately, there was only one dog who is good with cats so we were basically thinking that we would get a puppy so we can train it to behave around Caesar and so that it would be "our" dog. They told us there was a great puppy at Petsmart so we went there to see him and when we got there he was en-route back to the shelter.

So we went BACK to the shelter to meet "Rocky." Turns out he was incredible. Even Dave, who was/is skeptical about having a dog, loved Rocky. He's a german shepard/husky mix, and he's great. BUT someone had already put in an application on him while he was at the pet store-- so we were second if they decided they didn't want him. In the meantime, there was a litter of pups that would be ready later this week that we would get first dibs on. So we went home and stewed on Rocky for a while. We got a call about 5:30 that he had been picked up by the first person who applied to get him. So we were bummed but still hopeful for the puppies later this week.

Well, this morning I got a call from Sarah at the Humane Society asking if we really liked Rocky. I said we did and that I appreciated them putting us in line for the puppies. We she told me that he was returned!?! Can you believe it?!?! This puppy was SO well behaved, I can't believe anyone would return him. Turns out the people who took him home just weren't ready and they really wanted a female dog. Well poop on them, we got our dog!! We go to pick him up after work tonight. I'm so excited!

Yay!! We're getting a fur-baby!!

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

First pangs of pregnancy

In reality, I'm not sure if it was the Chinese food or the debate. Either way, it turns out that "morning sickness" (which by the way is not relagated to the morning) isn't going to miss me. Hopefully it won't continue to get worse, but whew, it was gross. I'm feeling that this week should go pretty well in the not-being-able-to-tell-anyone category... well, as long as I don't get sick at work that is. It's almost Thursday already! Half-way to Tuesday which means half a week closer to my next appointment. Well, that's all for now. Hooray!

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Cranky day

This morning went well, this afternoon is poopy. My computer keeps crashing, my mood dropped quickly and I'm hungry -- well, more than than I'm whiney.

David and I were going to go to Billings to look at puppies this weekend but I looked today and the pups are gone :( I called the Humane Society here though and they are expecting puppies in a few weeks so maybe that will work out. I think we'll try to go there and talk to them about adopting and maybe even consider a dog instead of a puppy -- if there was one that was already trained and friendly, it might be great for us and ease Dave's nerves about training a puppy. I guess even an older dog might be ok -- it might not live as long, but if it is already trained and no one else would adopt him, that could work. I guess I don't really know what is out there. I looked at local/close-to-local classifieds and they are only selling breeded dogs (very expensive) and I just think it's a better deal to get them through the Humane Society since they will be fixed and up-to-date with shots and everything. Ok, that's all for today. Hope you all are feely perkier than me today!

Monday, October 04, 2004

Loved the doctor!!

The meeting with the doctor went really well. They were SUPER nice and answered a ton of my questions. I can't believe they were willing to talk to me so long when I hadn't even decided yet to be a patient.

We went ahead and scheduled our first appointment when we will be able to hear the baby's heartbeat and I'll have to get a full physical exam. David and I decided we would wait until then (Nov. 2) to tell anyone else (I will be 9 weeks) but I'm not sure how well I'll do at waiting until then. I'm not very good at keeping my own secrets. The doctor said we really should wait until 14 weeks. Can you imagine?! If we did that, we might as well wait until Christmas and that seems like SO LONG from now. I think I'll be able to keep it from most of my family but I'm not sure I'll be able to keep it from friends who are around every day. I know if we told our parents it would be out like a wildfire so I'm sure we won't go down that road until we're ready to tell everyone but if I can't tell anyone until NOVEMBER!! You've got to be joking. We'll see -- maybe David will agree to get a dog and we'll be occupied with a new fuzz baby. That would be great!!

Meeting the doctor

So David and I have officially lived with "the BIG news" for a whole week now and told almost no one. According to the books, our first baby will have a heartbeat by the end of the week. Totally unbelievable to me. I'm in total awe that this is actually happening.

Anyhow, the big news for today is that we are going to meet the doctor. We've made no committment toward this doctor, but she came highly recommended so we're going to meet her today and see if her "vibe" will be right for us. As a family physician, she should be able to take us through the entire pre-natal, delivery and all requisite checkups. After having gone to specialist for most of my life, I'm excited about the idea of having a regular doctor.

As for symptoms, I'm doing pretty well. I've had a little queasiness after I eat, but nothing yet unbearable... and as it is after I eat, I haven't had any trouble getting enough food. My bbs are super sore, but I'm learning to live with that.

I've read so much about the first trimester and I'm worried that I will do something wrong or miscarry. I hope so much that everything is ok and that I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do. I've been on pre-natal vitamins for about 4 months so my nutrition should be relatively good for now. The only other notable symptom is that I can't sleep through the night. I have my usual bathroom breaks, but it seems that every time I wake up (not just to pee, but in general), I am totally awake. The books say not to fight it, that it is just my body getting used to getting up every few hours to feed but seriously, the baby isn't due until June -- you'd think I'd want to store up sleep, not forego it!

Well, that's all my news until we see the doctor. This all seems pretty surreal right now. I suppose it will be real enough soon.

P.S. I'm still itching to get a dog. David is getting more excited about the idea so maybe soon!