So it was as my eyes filled to the brim this evening that I realized I've taken the elevator right on past crazy and up to histerical. Though I don't feel like I've hit worthy-to-be-hospitalized quite yet, it's within sight. I'd like to blame it all on hormones, but after being pregnant/nursing/horny/pregnant-again for almost the two years, I feel like I've pretty much played that card to death. I have to accept that I am just a raving lunatic.
Please don't misunderstand me. I do think it's perfectly reasonable that when my child has a head wound, I should get a call for it from daycare. Granted, it's not like she was gushing blood or anything, but a scrap/wound/injury that requires care beyond a kiss-to-make-it-feel-better, Mommy must know. Call me high-maintenance. Call me hormonal. Just pick up the damn phone and tell me that my child shed blood -- even if it's only a drop.
Where it becomes unreasonable is that by the time my drive home (about 10 minutes) was over, and I walked in the door, I was at the point of histeria. So a special thanks to those of you who have remained (or even become) my friend during this time of my life. I'm pretty sure.... yeah... I'm pretty sure that this is not "normal" for me.... but hey, what do I know about normal? I've managed to graduate college, move three times (2 states), get married, get pregnant, have a baby and get pregnant again all in the last 3 years. I know I've always been a bit of a control freak and I know, thanks to Sarah in first grade, that I can be "Bossy Bridget." But emotional? Inarticulate? Lazy? These seem to be new personality traits that I'm not so thrilled to acquire.
2 comments:
If you didn't have a human growing inside you, I'd say have a drink.
Sigh.
Instead, I say roll with it. Hysteria and emotions beyond your control (because they are - apparently - two different things) suck ass, but it seems to me that fighting either of them just makes them worse.
i, too, would have suggested a good stiff drink...
it's okay though, sometimes i go hysterical just when people leave dirty glassware in the sink at work - and i don't even have a good excuse like being pregnant with child while already tending to a 1 year-old... don't worry, i still like you:)
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